I heard the song “Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow…” yesterday, but in my head, I was singing, “Let it go, let it go, let it go...” and realized I was actually feeling GOOD about letting go! This isn’t always the case, obviously. In fact, it’s seldom the case, but it can be…if we let it.
This has been a tremendous year of clearing and letting go for me, whether I liked it or not, and there were plenty of times that I did not. There were literal waves of upheaval, bringing with it everything from mechanical breakdowns and repairs, technological challenges and upgrades, leaps of faith in my work, which required financial risks and adjustments…to more interpersonal challenges, including health concerns, relational maladies, and communication breakdowns (and repairs), until it was excruciatingly undeniable that there was something bigger happening here. If it didn’t fit, function, or feel good anymore (literally and figuratively) it was being tagged for removal. IEEEEEHHH…too much too fast! Or was it?
Not surprisingly, every single item or issue that was laid on my path brought some aspect of a remaining false belief, paradigm, behavior, or block I was unaware of, giving me the opportunity to clear it and let it go. I resisted at first, but they were coming so fast that I was exhausting myself trying to keep up (in my head, in my control, in my agenda). At one point, I received the clear message to “Take it to the A.L.T.A.R” (Ask. Listen. Trust. Act. Repeat.), and I did. I learned and practiced sitting still and letting it unfold, in me and around me, one breath and one step at a time. Uggggh. Not easy, but worth it. Ultimately, the healing that alone brought to me was extraordinary.
I made the conscious choice to stop pushing my own agenda and to look honestly at what I believed ANYTHING meant about me, to me, or for me…and really, truly allowed something greater to be revealed to me. It’s a very unsettling experience to imagine this, but to actually do it is the most freeing and exquisitely peaceful space to inhabit. It literally changed my life.
In reality, if I’d been asked to make a list of the things in need of repair or release in 2011, there would have been quite a bit left off my list, but the Universe has a way of helping us out when we’ve clearly asked for the HIGHEST good to be revealed…and have strapped ourselves in for the ride! Whew! I don’t know if it’s over, but I’ve found that it’s not so bad if I open my eyes and reach for the sky, instead of keeping a death-grip on the safety bar. I’ve even found myself belting out a big “WEEEEEEEEEEEE” a few times. Now THAT’S progress!
My wish for you this holiday and the coming year is that you might find yourSelf singing “Let it go, let it go, let it go!", leaving behind in 2011 all that no longer serves you...stepping into 2012, eyes open, hands in the air, enjoying the ride of your life!